Indifference - healing from inside

Indifference is not ignorance, To be indifferent means you've built a strong wall to prevent yourself from expressing how you truly feel, which in turn stops you fully experiencing what stands before you.
Indifference is :-

Saying to yourself  'It doesn't matter' when deep down it does.
Holding back on your true emotional responses.
Being or feeling unable to express your emotions.
Feeling void of emotion.
Lack of energy to create enthusiasm for something.
Not being the true you.
Holding back on your true feelings.
Indifference is not :-
Truly not caring on an outcome is not indifference. It means you've already decided that neither outcome is preferable.
Unconcern, the situation and/or outcome has not effect on you or your life. Again, you've decided that 'this' has no reason to be in your life.

When you've made a fully informed decision based truly on your thoughts and feelings, you can not display indifference.

Indifference, is the inability or fear of expressing your true feelings and thoughts, which leads to building an invisible brick wall between you and what stands before you.
Indifference is not ignorance. Ignorance is the absence of information, absence of wanting information, and absence of response from information.
It doesn't matter
We are afraid to reveal our innermost thoughts in case of failure to reach what we desire.
I don't care, It doesn't matter, Whatever...
Yet deep down you're thinking, actually I'd prefer... to be honest I'd like... I hope...
If you honestly can not reveal your true feelings to someone about the situation, then at least be kind to yourself and tell yourself.
You'll find that once you are clear on your own feelings that you'll be less afraid to let snippets of information leek out into your actions and thoughts. Once you are clear on how you feel, you'll find the impetus to want to talk, to want to express.
Holding back/lack of emotional expression
What are you afraid of?
When you hold back or do not express your emotions. You are hurting yourself. If you can't express who you are in your life, then you are not being yourself.
If you are not being yourself then who the hell are you?
We hold back when we are afraid of other peoples responses. Why? Why be afraid of being who you are? Isn't it more responsible to be honest with yourself?
Appearing emotionless
No one is without emotions.
It's just sometimes we don't know how to express ourselves, or are unsure as to how we feel.
Dig down inside yourself to find out the truth.
Apathy
Apathy is a whole new chapter at some point in the future.
However, briefly apathy is the feeling of dis-interest in everything or something. It can be quite severe and cause depression.
Start small, find one thing which would/may spark something within you.
Interacting with indifferent people
Quite often we say 'they don't care', this is our wish that 'they do care' - so figure out why it is so important to you.
Before you state someone is being indifferent, first look to see why you feel this way.
We all know a 'joker' someone who makes light of everything you say to them, we all know loud people who seem to take everything in their strides. Remember, everyone has thoughts and feelings and no-one is void of emotions, even if they appear to be.
Clearing indifference...
At times, we all act indifferent. We try to remain calm when really what we want to do is shout or scream or throw a tantrum. We try not to reveal what we feel as we are afraid or embarrassed as to what someone may think about us.
Be sure that what you say has some relevance to how you truly feel, be sure that you fully understand why you feel the way that you do.
It may take some practice to be honest about how we feel. Especially implementing it in our daily life, we get so used to hiding what we truly feel, it becomes a habit.
Believe in yourself, understand and you'll find that feelings of indifference will clear. So long as you are honest with yourself, truly honest as to how you feel.

Happy Reading.. Relationship Never Dies

Still waiting for your second chance

Just wanted to share this short story with you all...

Hi friend,
I loved reading this...
It’s another morning..
….. Again I have to go to office
Ohh, this is me… I shouted having a glance on my snap in today’s news
paper.
But what the HELL it is doing in the death column??
Strange…
One sec... Let me think, last night when I was going to bed I had a severe
pain in my chest, but I don’t remember anything after that, I think I had a
sound sleep.
Its morning now, ohh….. It’s already 10:00 AM, where is my coffee?
I will be late for office and my boss will get a chance to irritate me.
Where is everyone…??? I screamed.

“I think there is a crowed outside my room, let me check.” I said to
myself.

So many people….. Not all of them crying…
But why some of them crying…
WHAT IS THIS??? I m laying there on the floor…
“I AM HERE” … I shouted!!! No one listen.
“LOOK I AM NOT DEAD” … I screamed once again!!! No one is interested in me.
They all were looking me on the bed.
I went back to my bed room.
“Am I dead??” I asked myself.
Where is my wife, my children, my mom-DAD, my friends?
I found them in the next room, all of them were crying… still trying to
console each other.
My wife was crying… she was really looking sad.
My little kid was not sure what happened, but he was crying just coz his
mom was sad.
How can I go without saying my kid that I really love him, I really do care
of him. ??
How can I go without saying my wife that she is really most beautiful and
most caring wife in this world..??
How can I go without saying my parents that I m … just because of u ??

How can I go without telling my friends that without them perhaps I have
done most of the wrong things in my life… thanks for being there always
when I need them… and sorry for not being there when they really need me..

I can see a person standing in the corner and trying to hide his tears…
Ohh… he was once my best friend, but a small misunderstanding made us part,
and we both have strong enough ego to keep us disconnect.

I went there.. And offered him my hand, “Dear friend… I just want to say
sorry for everything, we r still best friend, please forgive me.”
No response from other side, what the hell?? He is still preserving his
ego, I am saying sorry… even then!!!

I really don’t care for such people.

But one sec…. it seems he is not able to see me!!!! He did not see my
extended hand.
My goodness… AM I REALLY DEAD???

I just sat down near ME; I was also feeling like crying…
“OHH ALMIGHTY!!!! PLEASE JUST GIVE ME FEW MORE DAYS…”
I just wasn’t to make my wife, my parents; my friends realize that how much
I love them.

My wife entered in the room, she looks beautiful.
“YOU R BEAUTIFUL” I shouted.
She didn’t hear my words, in fact she never heard these words coz I never
said this to her.

“GOD!!!!” I screamed… a little more time plzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..
I cried…
One more chance please… to hug my child, to make my mom smile just once, to
feel my dad proud on me at least for a moment, to say sorry to my friends
for everything I have not given to them, and thanks for still being in my
life….
Then I looked up and cried!!!!

I shouted….

“GOD!!!! ONE MORE CHANCE PLEASE!!!!”
"You shouted in your sleep," said my wife as she gently woke me up. "Did
you have a nightmare?"
I was sleeping….
Ohh that was just a dream….
My wife was there… she can hear me…

This is the happiest moment of my life…


I hugged her and whispered…. “U R THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AND CARING WIFE IN
THIS UNIVERSE…. I REALLY LOVE U DEAR”


I can’t understand the reason of the smile on her face with some tears in
her eyes, still I m happy…. :)


“THANK YOU GOD FOR THIS SECOND? CHANCE.”


So, Now it’s not late.. Forget your egos, past……….., and express your love
to others………. Be friendly…………… keep smiling and be happy for ever… or you still waiting for your second chance..........

Satyam Ramalinga Raju and History

Today when I type satyam in my google search the results what I get really questions to all we Indians that do know only to react on situations or do we really have the gutts to stand to it... results like "Raju brings down Satyam, shakes India.." really made me think why india is a democratic country where anyone can say whatever literally whatever without giving a thought what could be its effect on the readers...

The facts remain the same that there has been such a scam undertook over a period not in a day but reactions should be monitored too.

One of my friend send me a mail today that I would like to share with you guys... have a look and think over all again...

Dear all of my Satyamites,

Yesterday will be a memorable day to us throughout our life. Little bit of business & human nature knowledge is forcing me to write few of my thoughts (Please ignore them if they doesn’t make any sense).

Ask yourself who is worst affected by all this mayhem. Is it u & me (employees), Govt or Satyam & Ramalingaraju ?. My conviction says that employees of any MNC are associated to that company as long as they don’t have any better option, the best thing government can do for a company is to keep itself away from it. But there was a visionary who created wealth for a nation for 20 years, the only thing that cannot be separated from Satyam for these 20 years & ahead also if Satyam remains was\is a name called “Ramalinga Raju”. Fortunately I got some 15 min of time talking to him when i was an ELTP. He’s much softer then we see him.

Imagine what would be going on in his mind when he was writing yesterday’s letter accepting all the things which he did only to save his company. All have made him scapegoat for what has happened & left the company keeping their integrity intact. He was cursed badly for putting the money of a public limited company into his family driven company but it only now clear that how he was transferrring the risk from 50,000 people to his two sons & his known-integrity.

The worst which can happen to we the employees is that we are out of our current job, jobless for time being & then again getting a job which we deserve & our families will be worried for us(as they are always). But a relatively bitter truth will be for the Raju-family who will be annoyed for ages & will be treated as miscreants by those who do not know the truth or more about Greedy investors & money market. And the truth is that he has not stolen some thousand crores rupees into his own pocket, it was a bubble he created which busted. (And every other company on earth does so, being wary of not getting trapped)

One more thing which annoys me is does a philanthropist guy deserve this disgraceful exit ? I really feel sad about the way he’s been portrait in the media. Our rustic fellows have already started comparing him with Harshad Mehta. Tell me any incident in corporate India where any chairman has dared to confess such irregularities in his own firm. And believe me it takes hell lot of guts to accept all this publicly. And as I read the news today morning it was published there that even his community members have suggested him not to tell anything and later on he can play with the Indian laws as every politician does in India. But as he mentioned it was all deep regret in his conscience which lead him to confess all this.

I am not at all saying that he’s totally innocent and unaware of what’s been going there but a person who has started a journey called Satyam 20 yrs ago with few associates and made it 4th largest IT Company in India, done all this for sake of his 50000 Satyam family members. In the end i’ll ask only one question to all of my friends,” for whom he has created this bubble, if it was he who was going bankrupt? ”

The day before all this mayhem started, we all were proud to be called as Satyamites and were wearing the Satyam tag displaying our esteem to others, and now due to a single incidence u are feeling awkward to show the same Satyam tag in public?? I don’t know about others, but still I am proud to be a SATYAMITE!!!

after reading this mail first thought that came to me was that all peoples are not simply rats on the sunking ship running for their life but few are always there to stand strong and face the storm.